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[Maroon 5]

I’m at a payphone trying to call home / All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone / Baby it’s all wrong /where are the plans we made for two?
Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember / The people we used to be

It’s even harder to picture / That you’re not here next to me

You say it’s too late to make it / But is it too late to try?

And in our time that you wasted / All of our bridges burned down
I’ve wasted my nights / You turned out the lights

Now I’m paralyzed / Still stuck in that time when we called it love / But even the sun sets in paradise
If happy ever after did exist / I would still be holding you like this

All those fairytales are full of shit / One more stupid love song  / I’ll be sick
You turned your back on tomorrow / Cause you forgot yesterday

I gave you my love to borrow / But you just gave it away

You can’t expect me to be fine / I don’t expect you to care

I know I’ve said it before / But all of our bridges burned down
 [Wiz Khalifa]

Man work that shit / I’ll be out spending all this money while you sitting round

Wondering why it wasn’t you who came up from nothing

Made it from the bottom / Now when you see me I’m stunning

And all of my cars start with the push up a button

Telling me the chances I blew up / or whatever you call it

Switched the number to my phone / So you never could call it

Don’t need my name on my show / You can tell it I’m ballin’

Swish, what a shame could have got picked / Had a really good game but you missed your last shot

So you talk about who you see at the top / Or what you could’ve saw

But sad to say it’s over for Phantom / pulled up valet open doors / Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for

Now ask me who they want / So you can go and take that little piece of shit with you

I’m at a payphone trying to call home / All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone / Baby it’s all wrong /where are the plans we made for two?

If happy ever after did exist / I would still be holding you like this

All those fairytales are full of shit / One more stupid love song / I’ll be sick
Now I’m at a payphone…

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Why should a woman who is healthy and strong
Blubber like a baby if her man’s goes away?
A weepin’ an’ a wailin’ that he’s done her wrong
That’s one thing you’ll never hear me say!
Never gonna think that the man I lose is the only man among men!
I’ll snap my fingers to show I don’t care
I’ll buy me a brand new dress to wear
I’ll scrub my neck and I’ll brush my hair
And start all over again!

Many a new face will please my eye
Many a new love will find me
Never have I once looked back to sigh
Over the romance behind me
Many a new day will dawn before I do!

Many a like lad may kiss and fly
A kiss gone by is bygone.
Never have I asked an August sky
“Where has last July gone?”
Never have I wandered through the rye
Wondering “where has some guy gone?”
Many a new day will dawn before I do.

Never have I chased the honeybee
Who carelessly cajoled me
Somebody jist as sweet as he
Cheered me and consoled me.
Never have I wept into my tea
Over the deal someone doled me

Many a red sun will set
Many a blue moon will shine
Before I do!

I know that I frequently highlight songs and lyrics – I can’t help it, I live in a musical universe. My dad is a professional musician now that he has retired from teaching and I was raised in a very music-inclined household. At one point, I enjoyed a life on the stage, just a’singin’ my heart out or tootling my flute. Music speaks to me in ways that only true musicians will understand. So, while I apologize for boring you with my songs, I also make no apologies that the cosmos speak to me through country ballads, rock anthems, and Broadway ditties.

Anyway, this song popped up on my iPod today while I was out walking the dog. Per my surgeon’s instructions, I have to walk daily for the next several months until all my incisions have healed – at which point I can graduate to running, aerobics, dancing or whatever else my heart desires. So the dog and I have a daily dose of iPod shuffling. This song came on and even the dog was cheering…

Any of you out there who have had your hearts broken or who have been wronged, who’ve been abandoned or treated like garbage? Am I the only one to feel that she does NOT need a man to complete her? Is there anyone else out there who is struggling to put on her big girl panties and get on with her life? I’m guessing I’m not alone….

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My good friend and coworker, Mandy, is leaving us tomorrow, off to spend 5 years in vet school in New Zealand. I am so happy for her – what a phenomenal opportunity – but I am also going to miss her terribly. She was the only other one of my coworkers that voluntarily worked the Sunday shift with me; she is a ray of sunshine when I walk into work; and I learned a lot from her on how to deal with feisty animals, worried owners, and errant toenails.

Her departure (along with my friend Steve’s recently) has gotten me to thinking – what am I staying here for? Why don’t I just go?

Truckin’, like the do-dah man / Once told me “You’ve got to play your hand” / Sometimes your cards ain’t worth a dime / If you don’t lay’em down.

I took a long drive around the county last week, to test the emotional waters to see if I would miss this area. While I do admit that it is a beautiful place with lots of history and interesting little spots, I also had to face the ghosts of a lot of painful memories and shared moments. There was almost no road I could turn onto that didn’t hold a shadow of some part of the last 10 years – and so many of them reminded me of things that I had lost. Not just my husband but some good friends, some interesting jobs, and yes even some parts of my self. I think that in some ways in might be better to just get away from those shadows that are haunting me, to leave and start fresh somewhere else.

Busted, down on Bourbon Street / Set up, like a bowlin’ pin / Knocked down, it get’s to wearin’ thin / They just won’t let you be, oh no.

But then, in the same breath, I realized that I would truly miss some of the people that have made this part of my life journey so enjoyable. I have a wonderful group of friends that watches out for me, cares for me, and treats me right. I have a fire department pseudo-family that is there for support when I need it (and frustration when I don’t) – just like a real family. These people are the treasures that I have found in Maryland – and I’m not sure I can leave them. How will I watch my godkids grow up? How will I keep the connection to my fire department brothers and sisters? How will my circle of friends stay intact if I’m somewhere else? How will I feel if I have no roots again?

You’re sick of hangin’ around and you’d like to travel / Get tired of travelin’ and you want to settle down.

I am, in total honesty, lured by the thought of just running away from my problems. A new area with new people offers me the temptation of forgetting. Maybe I can escape those unpleasant memories if I just have a new location? Forget for a minute that the psychological and emotional damage of the last 10 years (both self-imposed and inflicted by others) will travel with me, like some really ugly Louis Vuitton baggage. Forget for a minute that it is damn hard to start over in a new place where you don’t know anyone and are trying to get used to a new job, a new home, and a new locale. Forget for a moment that there are days that I’m not sure I have the energy or courage to get out of bed, let alone move halfway across the country. The lure of a NEW PLACE beckons me like a kid to a candy store.

I guess they can’t revoke your soul for tryin’ / Get out of the door and light out and look all around.

A NEW PLACE where no one knows anything about my personal life, where the sordid details of my marriage weren’t ground in the gossip grist mill for everyone’s enjoyment. Where I can live in a home that doesn’t mock me with its memories. Where I can go out to dinner with a man and no one gives a hoot – let alone have passed it on down the gossip chain with amusing little embellishments. Where I can live anonymously without worry that my ex will recognize my car in a parking lot and cause damage to it or me. Where I am just a nameless face in the crowd and not worried about running into any of my former in-laws. Where no one will remember that I used to be fat or married. Ahhh, the lure of that mythical NEW PLACE.

Sometimes the light’s all shinin’ on me / Other times I can barely see / Lately it occurres to me / What a long, strange trip it’s been.

Mandy is lucky – she isn’t running from anything. She doesn’t leave behind the bitter and sad memories that I do; she gets a fresh start without all the emotional baggage. Granted, that is mostly due to the fact that she has been smart enough NOT to get married. But, regardless, she isn’t running away from the past – she’s running to an exciting new future. She is truly off on a new adventure – and she better realize I’m going to come visit her Down Under! Good luck, Mandy, and safe and happy travels!

Truckin’, up to Buffalo / Been thinkin’, you got to mellow slow / Takes time, you pick a place to go / and just keep truckin’ on.

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(Once again, a blog that needs a soundtrack – click on the youtube link before you start reading):

Every year, as we approach the New Year, we all start thinking about our resolutions – and our hopes and dreams for the coming year. And as January passes, we slowly forget about those dreams, whether they are mundane or outrageous, as we settle into our daily routines. This year, as I entered the New Year, I couldn’t help but thinking about the wishes that I have for two specific people in my life. They are on different paths, different routes to happy lives – and I can’t help but wish as we enter 2012 that they have many amazing things ahead of them!

The first one is my friend Steve who is embarking on a new adventure, moving away from here and starting with a brand new beginning. I am so envious of his fresh start, his chance to get away. His new job is one that is in his field and for which he is well-trained – and, for the first time since I met him, he talks about work with excitement. I remember when I did this exact same thing 10 years ago – moved away from family and friends to try a new life. 2012 will be a big year for him and I hope that his fantastic smile will only get larger as he discovers happiness in his new life far from here!

The second one is my godson, who is in so many ways the sparkle in my life. Whenever I begin to feel blue about not having a family of my own, he is there to hug me, to giggle with me, to kick my ass in some Wii game or another. He looks at me with trusting eyes and a loving heart and makes me feel that I can do anything and conquer anything. Many people don’t know this but he once saved my life just by being alive – I knew I couldn’t leave him, couldn’t take away his Aunt Becky. That boy will always be the reason for my being – I may never contribute anything else important to this world but I will always know that I made a difference to him. I want him to have the most wonderful life that he can – and that the dawn of this New Year, like the many to come, bring a host of wonderful things to him!

So, to these two guys – and all of the rest of the people in my world – my wish for 2012 is that their lives be full and happy:

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow

 And each road leads you where you want to go

And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose

I hope you choose the one that means the most to you

And if one door opens to another door closed

I hope you keep on walkin’ til you find the window

If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile

But more than anything, more than anything
My wish for you Is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small

You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to

I hope you know somebody loves you And wants the same things too

Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget

All the ones who love you and the place you left

I hope you always forgive and you never regret

And you help somebody every chance you get

Oh, you’d find God’s grace in every mistake

And always give more than you take

But more than anything, yeah more than anything
My wish for you Is that this life becomes all that you want it to

Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to

I hope you know somebody loves you

And wants the same things too

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For me, the best part about the holidays is the music! Starting the day after Thanksgiving, the radio in my car stays tuned to 101.9 in Baltimore, an easy listening station that features 24/7 carols, novelty songs, and popular favorites. I LOVE the tunes at this time of year!

One of the girls that I used to work with hated Christmas music – and once, for a joke, we switched the sound effects on her computer to play jingle bells every time she did anything – and I thought she was going to either blow a gasket or kill me quickly. How can anyone hate Christmas music, I ask you??

The wistful songs (like “I’ll Be Home for Christmas” and “Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas”) bring a pang to even the most hardened of hearts. The songs in the Santa genre (“Santa Claus is Coming to Town,” “I Saw Mommy,” etc.) and the generic holiday tunes (“Rockin’ Around the Christmas Tree” and “Baby, It’s Cold Outside”) provide a non-religious, pop music option for the radio to play. The goofy songs are the funniest – the Hippopotamus song, “Crabs for Christmas,” “Grandma Got Run Over”, Dominic the Italian Christmas Donkey, etc. – and are nicely secular and non-offensive. Adam Sandler’s “Chanukah” song is a nice ethnic touch for the non-Christian kids in the audience. But, by far, the best kinds of Christmas music are the familiar and comforting carols of our youths, the songs that you hear in kids’ pageants, movies, and church sanctuaries around the world!

I’d have to say that “Silent Night” is my favorite, followed closely by “O Holy Night” and “Adeste Fideles.” These are the songs that immediately transport me back to many Merry Christmases of my past. “Silent Night” especially touches me – this was always the last song sung on Christmas Eve in my church, with a candlelit circle around the sanctuary. Nancy, our wonderful  pastor, would have the Christmas Sprite (one of the young children from the congregation selected each year) bring the flame from the Christ candle in the advent wreath to start the passing of the flame around the circle while “Silent Night” was sung. What an amazing symbol of the light that God gave to our world in the form of the baby Jesus!

So, when the familiar strains of this carol start, be prepared that I may cry. Whether its Sinead O’Connor, the Muppets or Andrea Bocelli, this wonderful piece of holiday music will start the waterworks. You’ve been warned…

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A special tribute to the AssHat that I once loved! Thank you for convincing me to stop!

I haven’t been to church since I don’t remember when

Things were going great – til they fell apart again

So I listened to the preacher as he told me what to do

He said “You can’t go hating others who have done wrong to you.

Sometimes we get angry, but we must not condemn.

Let the good Lord do His job and you just pray for them.”
I pray your brakes go out running down a hill,

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill

and knocks you in the head like I’d like to.

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls,

 I pray you’re flying high when your engine stalls.

I pray all your dreams never come true.

Just know wherever you are honey, I pray for you.
I’m really glad I found my way to church

‘Cause I’m already feeling better and I thank God for his words.

Yeah I’m going take the high road, And do what the preacher told me to do.

You keep messing up and I’ll keep praying for you.
I pray your tire blows out at 110.

I pray you pass out drunk with your best friend

and wake up with his and her tattoos.

I pray your brakes go out running down a hill,

I pray a flowerpot falls from a window sill

and knocks you in the head like I’d like to.

I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls,

I pray you’re flying high when your engine stalls.

I pray all your dreams never come true.

Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car,

wherever you are honey, I pray for you. I pray for you!

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“Waiting for My Real Life to Begin” by Colin Hay

Yet another inspiration from the iPod. For all of you out there who, like me, are stuck in limbo, who are waiting for the better adventures that MUST be coming soon. For those of us who have all the faith in the world that good things wait for us. And for those of us who, up until now, have not known true love or sincere emotion. For those of us who BELIEVE!

Any minute now, my ship is coming in

I’ll keep checking the horizon

And I’ll stand on the bow, and feel the waves come crashing

Come crashing down, down, down on me
And you say, be still my love

Open up your heart Let the light shine in

Don’t you understand I already have a plan

I’m waiting for my real life to begin
When I woke today, suddenly nothing happened

But in my dreams, I slew the dragon

And down this beaten path, up this cobbled lane

I’m walking in my old footsteps, once again

And you say, just be here now

Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin

Just let me throw one more dice I know that I can win

I’m waiting for my real life to begin
Any minute now, my ship is coming in

I’ll keep checking the horizon

And I’ll check my machine, there’s sure to be that call

It’s gonna happen soon, soon, oh so very soon

It’s just that times are lean
And you say, be still my love

Open up your heart, let the light shine in

Don’t you understand I already have a plan

I’m waiting for my real life to begin

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